July 3, 08 9:54pm

Today, talked about my personal lack of feeling suggesting I have any needs. I read how boys are commonly raised in the US. They are told from quite early on that they are not hungry, they are not cold, they are not whatever they claim to be. With repetition, shouting, intimidation, swatting, slapping, spanking, young boys are taught to deny their feelings. Then, in order to preserve their sanity, they learn to deny they are denying anything.

This double-burial of feelings leaves a boy looking like some kind of stalwart, never bitches and moans, GI Joe character. But operating without feelings has complications. There is fear of feelings when they start to appear. There is a life spent believing there are no feelings but hunger and anger. There is the problem of frustrating women by the Male's inability to tell her how he feels. And lack of concern about it. 10:21pm